A very old Poem

your eyes show it all

show that you love me

your silence shows lots

words are meaningless to describe what we share

the smile on your face while you leave me

shows how much i mean to u

 

i look into ur eyes

and i see that love in you

sitting next to you

i can feel your heat beat with mine

 

when i enter the institute

i always look around

my eyes just tryin to catch a glimpse of you

my heart full of joy thinking of you

 

wherever i go , whatever i see

it somehow reminds me of you

the trees show me their leaves

the leaves which we love

and which symbolize true friendship

the birds which remind me that you r my angel

the angel who has given me the wings to help me reach the sky

 

the institute which reminds me that although we may be different streams

we belong to the same place

we may be different but we hav the same goals

the wind carries your fragrance

gives me the feeling that you are always with me

 

the sun reminds of you , the one who brightens up my life with her smile.

it reminds me of the glow on your face

the face which is the envy of all :)

the rain reminds me of you

of how much we love to dance in the rain

each drop of water shows me how precious is the time i spend with u

once gone it never comes back

but its memories are always there.

 

the flowers remind me of the beauty in you

the petals show me your softness

 

i love my life

i live my life within your heart

and i love it

Trust or not to Trust?

I may be the biggest cynic in the world. I may be the person who is scared of this world. I may be the person who wants to run away from this world cause he doesnt even trust his own family. However , I am a person who can easily trust people. Its surprising , isnt it, dnt trust family but trust friends. However , that is history , a painful past which has made me what I am in life. I do not trust anyone from the brain. My heart if fickle, it trusts extremely easily. However, lets see. I asked my best friend ( that person knows who) why should I trust her ? She replied back " Give a reason why you should not trust me ? , I do not expect me to lie ." This question confounded me. Why shouldnt I trust her? She knew me inside out , she knew that I was like a girl , very sensitive, just from my writings. She knew that I was hiding something from her but still she used to listen intentively to me and respected me. This person in two years has matured beyond her age. I idolize her like hell. I hide things from her cause I dont want to discuss my problems, I want to solve them on my own and her friendship is most important to me. We are two opposite people, she is from humanities , a topper in studies , a great dancer and pathetic at sports. I am the opposite , studious and sports . I rarely watch films nor do I dance well. But i like all the differences and respect her differences and enjoy her stories and she does too. The key is she has been there for me when i needed a friend to talk to. She always called me when I asked and also when wanted to talk. Thats all it is to it. Thats why I can trust her. She respects me and I respect her. My brain agrees that i can trust her and she is ready to help me out and discuss life with me as well as give me some personal space. She is beyond her age. She is a miracle girl and angel. She is too modest. She is the true star actually. Girls and guys will meet her one day. Tc . Loads of Love my best friend
Sidak

Why am i here God ?

Oh what is this life ?
What is the purpose of this life?
Oh what is this life?

Oh God give me a goal
Why am I on this earth?
What purpose do i serve here?
oh God please give me a clue about my destiny

Oh God i am lost ..
i dont know what i am supposed to do..
I dont have a dream,...
I dont know why I do exit here in this world??

Oh God is life about happiness ?
What is happiness God?
What is true happiness God ?
Is it wealth and respect ....
what is success in life in God ??

Oh God what i am to be ?
Am i to be wealthy and respected ?
Am i to be a star , to be the best above the rest ?
am i supposed to a normal simple guy ?

Oh God i am not happy ?
I do not know what makes me happy?
I cant live life in pain ...
What gain is there in pain dear God ?

Oh God i do not know
i am confused , i do not know what makes me happy?
I do not dream , I cant see my future..
I just live without any meaning ??

Oh God , i keep myself busy
Busy inorder to hide from the pain
Inorder to run away from depression..
Inorder to run away from sadness..

Oh God , y am i here on this earth?
I dont like this world ,
I love to be left alone, I dont like to be seen
I like to be alone forever...
I feel like running away from everyone ??

Oh God , why am i living here?
What is my purpose God ?
Why am i studying ??
Why cant i be happy God ??
Why am i sad always and depressed from inside?
Why cant i be myself in this world?
Oh God , help me , what am i supposed to be in this world?
Please give me a meaning to my life God
Why am i here God ??
Why God?

What is Love ??

What is love? Can love be defined? Some say true love is that which cannot be defined. Some say true love does not exist. But now what is the difference between love n True love?. Why this term at all 'True Love' . Isnt love supposed to be true ?? Some believe in Love , some do not believe. Some falsely claim that they can love and they know how to love. Let me ask you a question, if you truely love that person, why can't you define it? You do not know what you feel for that person , you do not know what that person feels for it.. Then how can you say it isnt a crush nor an infatuation... Isnt 'LOVE' an enhanced form of friendship.
Cannot friends love each other. Cannot family members love each other.. There are certain things common in all. You trust them , you trust ur true lover, true friends and family members. You feel for all. You try to take care of all of them. They help you whenever u need them. Most important. You adjust to each of them all. You fight with all of them, but ultimately you never leave them. They all have a place in your heart.. You want to work for their happiness.
Can love be selfish??
Can love be about selflessness? Can love mean to just do nothing while the other does everything?
Does love mean that the other person ignores u whenever he/she feels like and u take it all with a smile..?
Does love succeed , if you do not try to understand one other , just be ur selfish selves , want to be alone , think abt your own problems and leave the other person suffering his/her own problems. Isnt love about helping each other improve to be better persons? Not about helping each other with their problems , isnt about discussing things out so that it works for both of us, not just a single one of us and leave the other with his/her own problems and dont give a damm??
True love is selfless I believe... No possession , just respecting everyone's differences , adjusting to differences which are conflicting, learning about each other , helping each other to be better persons. It is about helping , supporting people in times of depression . It is about sharing happiness of both. It is about giving personal space . It about atleast the other person knowing that you want that space.. Selfless will give you what u seek , but all you need is to ask for it. Selfless love will always understand ur problems and try to support you in everyway possible. Selfless love just wants your happiness but Selfless love needs to learn to understand the differences.
It isnt about dependence , it is a willful responsibility that one wants and receives . It is mutual 50-50%. Friendship , family n all . It is all willful responsibility. If you dont want it , you can always leave. Just ask to leave and selfless love will let you leave...

dear friend what can i say

Friend , oh dear friend
u hav been with me since long
since long it has been

Friend, oh dear friend
were actually a true friend ??
did u try to understand me ??
did u ever think abt me when taking a decision??

Friend , oh my dear friend..
I needed u and u werent there
u were off with urself , unaware of my pains
ignoring my heeds for help, just thinking on urself

Friend , oh my dear friend
why are you so selfish, why dont u respect me
why dont u want to work for us
why dont u want to work for our betterment together

Friend , oh my dear friend,
you know that for me , love is life
love is what i give n happiness i what i seek from you
i wish to have a relation with u dear friend..
is it too much that i seek...

Friend , oh my dear friend,
Why be so stubborn in your case ,
why not hear me out , why cant we discuss things out,
why cant u adjust n respect my differences ,
i try to do the same for u , y cant u compromise dear friend a bit?

Friend, oh my dear friend ,
each one of us is different,
life is about trying to adjust to others
we cnt be selfish always , just fantasize
just think we be same , have ego n not change even a bit

Friend , oh my dear friend ,
do you know what is love??
U have achieved all materialistic desires ,
but where is the true love dear friend..
u just come to me when u need me , when u hav been depressed

Friend , oh my dear friend ,
u never been there fr me , infact u run away from me
I have problems dear friend u dnt no off..
why did u run away dear friend

Friend , oh my dear friend ,
i wish you could understand me sometimes too..
i wish you were a bit unselfish ...
i wish you wanted to work it out with me
i wish you would give US a chance together

Friend , oh my dear friend,..
We shape our own destiny ....
please learn from the past...
i try to improve for u ... try to adjust...
things worked well for us....
But suddenly u hate me now...

Oh why friend, i just wanted u happy,
why do you hate me now dear friend?
I just love you lots dear friend...
I am sorry friend.., im not what u seek
I am not what u desired...
Sorry friend , i leave you to your world ...
I have my arms open for u anytime ...
But friend , it is 'us' that is important to me
not me or you individually , 'us'
it is always 50-50 in life...

Now i leave with sadness ...
with nothing to have...
i know u will learn your own way...
i am learning my way all on my own ....
i miss ur presence , but i must move on...
srry dear friend , i am not what you wanted for me...

But please remember dear friend
Oh dear friend , i will always try to work on what u wanted...
but please help me and support me in times of need...
it is 'us' that is important , not individuals..
for me 'us' , not me n u individual ...
it is 'we' , not I and u...
that is what i believe dear friend

Love
Sidak

Oh dear Friend

Friend oh my dear friend,
will u leave me , will u be true?
will u be ther with me forever?

Friend oh my dear friend ,
will u help me when i need it,
will u hold me when i need a hug?
will be there besides me ?

Friend oh my dear friend ,
will u save me from the pain ,
will u unselfishly help me ,
will u plz take my tears away... .plzz...

Friend oh my dear friend
why did u leave me when i needed u the most?
I need u friend , y leave?
plz help me ... plzzzzz

Friend oh my dear friend
I understand , life has other priorities,
family is important , ur duties are too
studies are important, u hav love from others,
i am srry i failed to help u....

Thank friend for all
for all that u gave me ,
i am grateful for all ur time and support
sorry tht i asked for more ...
I should have been satisfied with nothing
I should have helped u n und u
Sorry i have been selfish

Love u forever ,
friend hope u give me another chance,
another chance to be happy ,
another chance to live , to see ur smile
a chance to repay what u have given me
sorry friend give me another chance

Bye friend
Love
Sidak

For u angel

Ur my star , ur my light
ur the one who brightens
the day, shines the night

Ur my heartbeat , ur my lifeline
ur the one for whom my heart
pumps and my lungs breath

Ur my angel, ur my happiness
ur my life , ur my friend
u i wish to be my future wife

I love you angel , no matter
wat i will love , i will never leave u
just be happy n smiling,
thats all i want from u

Love
Sidak

Idea of Selflessness

What is Selflessness ? Can anyone be unselfish 100%. Our cynics definately will disagree. Well, they are right in one way if we consider everyone does everything directly/ indirectly for one's own happiness. Thats each human's aim and that can be considered selfish. One common way to define selflessness is to say that one is happy on seeing other's being happy. That one does for other's good and fulfills his need to be satisfied . But what do you do if no-one wants your help cause it guilts u. Well simple leave that person i guess cause most imp is that person's happines but do you actually do? Loosing a relationship that took years in the making and just now , you leave that person. I would say leave the person , let the person come back to you if the person is happy with you , if not , that means it wasnt meant to be and she is happy with someone better than you . But dnt forget what you did was selfless and is ultimate sacrifice one can do in life. It doesnt mean that u put ur life in other person's hands . U control ur life , noone else does but u just be happy by spreading happiness and dnt expect anything in return other than a smile . But one dilemna one faces is when do your actions cause hurt even if your intentions are for the good? How do you realize and what to do then.? Thats a tricky question. One way is to simply continue without realizing but when ur confronted , u will hurt for sure. Better is to see if things changes , then leave that person alone , if she is happy with u , she will come back , otherwise she wnt. True selfless people will be happy both ways , but is anyone upto the task ??? Plz send ur ideas

A poem for no-one for i am nothing

Wat do u hav tht pulls me close 2 you,
ur d only relation i rationly cnt define,
i dnt no what exactly i feel 4 u,
time cnt keep us apart,
oh wat do u hav angel thts happy wherever u r,
y is there a strong invisible bond that keeps me to you,
y dont i mind any longer ur mood changes,
y do i accept u for what u r,
but y am i unhappiness for u , just want ur happiness
y do i write for u, ur nothing fr me ,
i am nothing for u,
i accept everything u give me with a smile
Hence i leave you dear angel , cause i am nothing
I am nothing for myself,
nothing for this world, not worth anything ,
definately not worth an extraordinary girl like u ,
sorry for the tears , sorry for the unhappiness i gav u ,
i just want u to smile always n hope one day ur problems goes away
i hav enough of my problems , cnt create anymore
Bye dear angel, God Blessed me with u
I learned n I live myself, nothing to give , nothing to take , nothing i expect...
Thats life
Love Sidak

My heart

I feel something strong, ur presence elates me, i think of u when i am free, whatever u do it makes me happy , u make me want to be good, u make me want to be egoless, selfless . I just feel like spreading love , loving u the most n others as all. U make me expect nothing , i love my life , i dnt want anything cause i need nothing n i am happy with watver i have... U make me feel lucky to be blessed with an angel like u. An ordinary guy with an extraordinary girl.. admire all tht I hav achieved, ur my idol.

IITD students take notice , do something before complaining (Campus Rumpus)

Letter to the Editor:
It is unfair to criticize the institute especially the infrastructure. IIT education is wholly subsidized and only for the benefit of the unfortunate ones who cant afford such an education and for whom such facilities are a luxury. If one is to expect world-class infrastructure then one ought to be ready to pay for it. A student in MIT has to pay $50,000 per annum and then he gets the facilities. Here we fight to pay even Rs 50,000 and demand world class facilities. Furthermore, the facilities provided are wholly misused. The one of the core reasons that our LAN fails is because some of our dear batches use proxies which eat up our speeds for the most outrageous of downloads ( movies, music etc) for all the students benefits. Furthermore, LAN gaming is its most popular use and the time wasted on these things are unparallel. Most people are addicted to games (Counter Strike , AOE etc).Library wifi is extremely fast and can be used by all for study purposes , no misuse. The laptops are used for watching movies etc , gaming mostly , not for studies. Assignments are copied. No one wants to put in the hardwork but just pass the blame to others. Atleast make the right and best use of what you have.
An institute’s image is defined by the students , the way they work , the way you guys work in the companies. You do well n you enhance ur institute’s reputation. It is the students that maintain the brand name that IIT has ‘ the core reason why you guys took JEE’.
I am sure if one puts in the time and effort for the right goals , we can achieve what we aspire to achieve. The onus is on us to improve the institute , not the professors or its heads. We have to bring change .

A point of a bit of off the topic , the system is corrupt . So why do the students let the system make them corrupt and not vice-versa. Look at oneself before judging others. We students should work towards removing corrupt , both in the institute and the country and i think if we are the best brains that this country has to offer, we are the best hope :P